The dilemma

Besides Kitty, there are 2 other girls in Ettu's life.

Lets start with the background information.

Lets name them Elizabeth and Sally.

Elizabeth is a nurse whom I got to know at my gynecologist clinic.

She is in her mid 30s, dresses feminine.

At first we started out chatting about random stuff, sooner or later we became friends and started hanging out pretty often. This became more frequent after she suffered a divorce due to her guy cheating on her, and from then on she no longer trust in guys, and became what you call as, a lesbian.

But the amount of times we got to meet up became lesser after I know Sally.

Sally is still currently a student, with a troubled family background. She used to study in girls school, and have never liked guys. Dresses tomboyish, or you can call as a butch :)

I met her when I went clubbing with Kitty and her friends. She is actually Kitty's friends friend, not someone I know or Kitty knows. Well we chatted and got close and hang out pretty often.

Somehow Elizabeth seems to mind Sally's presence around me, she deems her as a threat. (which I do not know why but..) I can pretty much suspect Elizabeth is fond of me or something, or she see's Sally as snatching me away.

Due to this, the both of them do not like each other and I can never get them to get along.

Just recently, Sally came over after a quarrel at home. After spending quite some time consoling her, she finally calmed down. I stood up and was just about to head to the kitchen to grab some drinks when suddenly she hugged me tightly from behind.

I turned around and she got up, and the next moment she landed a kiss on me. She started professing her love for me! I was caught totally unprepared. I told her we could be sisters, she could confide in me anytime. She persisted even more strongly, saying she would like to live with me and away from her father.

I assured her she could come visit or stay over anytime. And the next sentence was a big gong on my head. She does not like Elizabeth and does not like me to hang out with her. (ouch) She said she wanted me all to her. (girls are so selfish, i am too ! :xD)

I did not give my reply immediate but I knew she will ask sooner or later again.

Elizabeth on the other hand is a lonely person who do not have much friends. After she split up with her husband, she lives alone. At times she will invite me over for snacks and girl talk. In her situation it was different, she wanted me to move over to accompany her. Awkward. If i were to move in, I wouldn't be able to accommodate Sally. If I were to accommodate Sally, I definitely cannot move in with Elizabeth.

I'm actually quite curious on how a relationship with another girl will be. Kitty told me, "Go for it! Its a definite that it will not be as ugly as with guys from your past". When I asked her who should I be with, the answer from her, "I'm staying out of it hahahaha" =.=

In my mind I know, this wont be a long term issue. As in it wont be for life definitely. The both of them also knows that, eventually things will change and change will come. But I can tell they pretty much both yearns 1 thing, companionship. Not a relationship. But as girls as selfish, they want me fully. I told them say irregardless of my decision, I will still be friends with them, even though not as a companion. Both respected my decision.

So the question lies between the 2.

1. A lady in her 30s that desire my companionship with her by me moving in with her.
2. A lady in her 20s that desire my companionship with her moving in with me.

What do you think?

Ettu Signing Off ☺